From There to Here

Holy shit balls! Time certainly does fly.

Well, I’ve kind of moved away from Stand Up. I still perform here and there. I wouldn’t say that I quit, I just really don’t have the desire to pursue it as a career. The actual performance isn’t the issue, it’s everything that surrounds it. Trying to chase down bookers, make an impression on them, sending in avails, auditioning, keeping in contact, and then that person gets fired/the club closes. A new person comes in, and all that hard work is just thrown out the window. Trying to balance making very little money, and having to keep up with auto expenses. Maxing out credit cards just to be able to get to a gig and make $150 once everything is said and done. Living off the bottom of the barrel just to try and stay a float. Crashing on couches, trying to fill in voids on the schedule.

It’s like you’re always pushing yourself to the edge of the envelope, and for what? To make some people have a good time? To be the life of the party for an hour? I see that as the old world. When I first started comedy cell phones were just being pitched as having “Color” screens. You might be able to do some extremely limited web browsing, but it was by no means a feasible way to surf the web. There were no podcasts, and Myspace was just becoming the latest craze. I use to print directions to gigs from Map Quest for crying out loud. As technology developed, so did the public’s appetite for entertainment.

Now days, everyone carries a digital device capable of streaming HD video with little to no interruptions. You don’t need to leave the house in order to have countless hours of digital entertainment pumped into your face. My point is the ease of access, and options for accessibility have drastically changed. Why would I focus time, energy, and life on trying to get to a specific location, at a specific time, and making sure you have a specific amount of money, in order for me to entertain you? All while running the risks of some drunk idiot yelling out in the middle of a show, or causing a scene resulting in a ruined evening.

When I can sit at home, create a video, put it online, and entertain you when it’s convenient for you. Basically, that is the direction I’ve decided to take. I’ve started live streaming Xbox One games, which you can see in the side bar link, or click here to check it out:

h3ch Youtube Channel

You can also follow the Channel through Twitter, by going here:

@h3chtv twitter

I’ll still be performing stand up, but with very few road dates.

It’s been real, it’s been fun….. but it hasn’t been real fun :)


Dissecting Happiness

Any time you wish to dive deeply into something, you must first post the Webster definition of what it is you're diving into. With "Happiness" being in the the subject line, let us begin.

"Happiness" noun: happiness; plural noun: happinesses

  1. the state of being happy.

    "she struggled to find happiness in her life"

Well.... Seems to be pretty vague. Lets try the definition for "Happy".

"Happy" adjective: happy; comparative adjective: happier; superlative adjective: happiest; suffix: -happy

  1. feeling or showing pleasure or contentment.

    "Melissa came in looking happy and excited"

    • having a sense of confidence in or satisfaction with (a person, arrangement, or situation).

      "I was never very happy about the explanation"

    • satisfied with the quality or standard of.

      "I'm happy with his performance"

    • willing to do something.

      "we will be happy to advise you"

    • (of an event or situation) characterized by happiness.

      "we had a very happy, relaxed time"

    • used in greetings.

      "happy birthday"

  2. fortunate and convenient.

    "he had the happy knack of making people like him"

  3.  informal

  4. inclined to use a specified thing excessively or at random.

    "our litigation-happy society"

We have a lot more words the second time around, however more confusion. When I ask about "Happiness" it is meant to describe a persons overall feeling. The term "Happy" seems to mean, well, anything you want it to. Though, in the definition, the words "satisfied", and "content", seem to be more along the lines of what I am looking for. 

Our culture seems to interject any word we wish in order to communicate a feeling that is, to say the least, indescribable. How do you describe when you're feeling happy? Does describing what you feel resinate with the person you are trying to describe it to? I open my mouth, words shoot out of it, they go into the ear of the person listening. The listener then mentally searches for connections to those words they've experienced themselves. Based on their own experiences they either identify or confuse what is trying to be communicated.

Happiness is not to be described. To describe happiness is like trying to reach into a dream and pull out a physical object. The task feels easy, but when actually attempted, it is impossible. While trying to describe happiness might be impossible, it is easy to identify what happiness does not have.

Happiness is free from worry, stress, and anxiety. Though what if you enjoy those things? What if you enjoy worrying over something, because that something is meaningful to you? You enjoy the worrying, it occupies the mind. Surely that is far from satisfied or content. Yet for the individual who enjoys worrying, that would seem like bliss.

The point I'm trying to make is that you have to be the one to create your own happiness. I mean everything to do with happiness. From the definition of it, to it's contents, even how you apply it to your own life. You have to create everything about it. Which, by the way, totally sucks if you are stuck in a depressive/sad state. Surely if you possessed the power to do this, you would have implemented it already. I would encourage you to try and understand that everything is a process. Our culture is obsessed with the fast easy snap, snap, and problem is solved scenario. In life, there is no Montage. You can't fix things snap snap. You first have to break ground, and force yourself to do something. A little at a time, consistently, and with great effort. Repetition brings rewards. 

How do you build towards happiness? Epicurus a Greek Philosopher from 341 BC, had some thoughts. Epicurus spent a great deal of time asking himself, "What makes people happy?" Through his studies he found three things.

1. Having your Friends around

2. Work for yourself, Not other people

3. Finding calm, in your own mind

While this seems easy enough, I'll elaborate on each one of these in the following days. Explaining why these three easy steps, are so hard to grasp in todays society. Between now and then, check out this quick philosophy video on Epicurus.

When everything runs out

My move back to Missouri, was unexpected to say the least. In trying to grasp everything that happened, I handled a lot of things poorly. I drank to try to find comfort in my discombobbled situation. I tried to continue with the life I'd had in California. Took quite some time to realize that wasn't an option. I couldn't take the life I'd built out there and transport it out here, it just wouldn't work. I had to take the lessons I had learned, and the wisdom I had gained, then try to apply that to building a new life. Easier said than done. Several months of spiraling had to take place before I was able to try to grab onto something. Before I could try and stop it, and face what my new reality was. After many bridges had been burned, drinks had been slammed, and debt considerably accumulated, I found my motivation to rebuild. I establish some perimeters. I felt that with time and patience, these activities would yield positive lasting results. I was once told "We Reap what we plant". I began to journal every day to maintain my writing discipline of sitting down to do the work. I exercise for an hour every day, even if it's just walking, to keep my body in motion, and my energy up. I sit and do a seven minute  guided meditation every day, to keep my mind focused, and my emotions in check. Lastly, I strive to do my creative work. Painting to establish calm, and patience. Working on my book to practice clarity of thought visualization, descriptions, and the discipline of rewriting to make an idea more concise, or clear. Writing Stand Up, to take steps towards my career goals, to relish every idea that comes across, and then quickly let it go. I try to do this every day. It is free, it allows you to rebuild yourself. Retrain the way your mind works. You can't go out and fix everything in one afternoon. Things of this nature take time to craft, structure, and adjust to. One thing I was really guilty of was the "feeling sorry for yourself", I felt a lot of people had helped contribute to the way I was feeling. I pushed those people out, or they left on their own accord. Once they were gone, one thing remained unchanged, I was still me. I was still me, and me felt absolutely miserable. Every time a problem would pop up, It was one more log to add onto the fire of depression and self loathing. I kept fighting, even if I gave up on some days/weeks. I would eventually find myself right back to trying to make things better. Trying to advance myself. I began to find supreme motivation in odd places. The internet is truly an amazing tool if you seek out the right things. Here is a video I found from the Joe Rogan Experience, it was highly motivating, so I suggest you take the two minutes and watch it!


Funko Pop Unboxing Mail Call & Contest

Messing around with some unboxing videos. Running a contest for each video. In order to win the Pop prize, all you have to do is:

1. Subscribe

2. leave a comment roasting the video

3. check your inbox to see if your a winner!

Winners are selected on Mondays, new videos released on Tuesdays. We'll take the top 3 best comments. Each 1st place winner will have 24 hours to claim the prize. After 24 hours we'll start moving down to 2nd place, then 3rd place ect ect.

Check it out, and talk some smack!


Scammers gonna Scam

While selling some items on eBay, I found the problem with eBay. The problem with eBay, is that it is a completely bullshit company. They have no fraud protection for the people that sell items on eBay. eBay also makes it's money by taking a percentage off of each sellers sale. When a couple of tweakers out in Michigan tried to scam me, they failed. They failed, well because they are tweakers, and tweakers never do things correctly!

We Have The Technology to Rebuild Him!

Okay, well slowly but surely (Hey! Don't call me Surely!) I am rebuilding everything. From the Podcast to the youtube videos, everything is trying to get set back onto the tracks. The last 5 months have been kind of crazy, and hopefully I'll be able to get the marbles back in the jar. Though, maybe I won't.

Maybe I'll pay for this stupid thing and this is the only post that you'll ever see.... either way, buy a CD for crying out loud!